Larry Update and Me

I got a text from Karen today with an update on how Larry's surgery went.  She said they were able to remove most of the tumor but that he did lose a lot of blood, 2 liters.  Now they are monitoring him for brain swelling and stroke.  That's the information I have on Larry.  Karen says she is doing alright but is still worried, which is so to be expected.  Please keep praying for strength and peace for Karen.  She will be staying Friday night at my house and I am really looking forward to being able to love on her.  Also please pray that Larry will heal quickly with minimal side effects and no complications.  Thank you all for asking about Larry, a guy most of you don't even know.  It is so heart warming to see the family of God come together.  I love you all.

On a different note, I wasn't going to mention this, but I know I should.  I see my radiation doctor and my dermatologist tomorrow morning for my 6 week follow up after the radiation treatment.  I thought I was OK going back there, but I'm having a hard time mustering up a good attitude.  Honestly, the idea of even driving to that building gives me butterflies in my stomach.  I was telling Shad that just when I think I can forget about having cancer, a stupid appointment comes up and I have to relive it all over again.  I'm getting tired of thinking that every little red spot or blemish on my body is more lymphoma and I am getting quite tired of showing my butt to everyone.  I just want it all to go away.

But, I also know that God doesn't want me to have this attitude and that I do have to keep facing this.  I can't pretend like it never happened because it did.  So, once again, I am asking all of you to pray for me too.  God gave me a bible verse leading up to my lymphoma diagnosis:

You will not have to fight this battle. 

Take up you positions;

stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you,

O Judah and Jerusalem.

Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. 

Go out to face them tomorrow,

and the Lord will be with you.

2 Chronicles:20:17

That is what I will pray for, the strength to go out and face this tomorrow.  I would appreciate it if you would too.  Thanks.