Randomness

I feel like I should do a post today, but to be honest I can't come up with anything formal to say and no new photos to share. So here is a random post full of randomness straight form the forefront of my brain...

Saturday I met up with my 5K buddy, Jen, to do some training. We did a routine she was told about by a friend where we walked for 8 minutes then ran for 2. We did that for about 40 minutes. We agreed that next time we will do more. We are going to meet on Saturday mornings to run together then run on our own during the week. Today, at the gym, I wanted to see just how far I could run without keeling over and dying. I ran 1.5 miles in 18 minutes without walking. I was pretty impressed with myself. That cardio kickboxing is really paying off. The scale also told me that I have lost 2 pounds! Woo hoo!!

I had a good talk with my officially unofficial trainer, Tonya, about running and training. She gave me tons of tips and encouragement. One thing I realized is that she is a champion when it comes to endurance. I was quite impressed. So I guess Jen and I are doing it right after all. So we'll either do the 5K in April in the metropolis or one in May here in town. We'll decide that as it gets closer.

I am feeling a little at a loss these days. Shad and I both are. It's a lot of stuff, big life stuff. We don't know which direction to take and don't feel as though we are able to make a decision to save our lives. Not hearing a lot from God either. We both decided that no matter how much we feel rushed to make a decision about any of the major topics we were discussing, if we aren't getting an answer from God it must mean we need to "be still and know that He is God." Not always an easy task, waiting. But we decided we would wait. No nail biting, no butterflies in our bellies, just wait patiently. And trust. God give us the ability to trust. **Sigh**

I took the kids swimming again last night after Shad left for the desert. We had a really good time again. Josh was (wearing his life jacket) jumping off the side of the pool, going under, then swimming back to the edge and doing it all over again. He must have done that for 30 minutes straight. If he's got that jacket on his fear is gone. Hannah did a lot of floating with the noodle, kicking her feet and learning to trust me to help her float on her back. I also did some balancing that forced me to work my abs. Oh I felt the burn. My ears were pretty sloshy when we got home. When I was laying in bed on my side I felt some crackling then I felt the water drip out of my ear. Ahhhh, relief.

My final thoughts. I love my husband. We had a quick but great weekend together. A lot of deep conversations about life. We came to a conclusion about it. We can either live the easy life full of self centeredness and ourselves or live the challenging life of self sacrifice and focusing on God and others. The answer we came to was not the easy one but the hard one. I guess that means we'll be doing a lot of praying. This may come as a shock but being self centered is way easier than being self sacrificing. If I had to rely on only my strength to be the latter, I would not be able. Thanks for listening, with your eyes.